I’m really enjoying my baby bump. It’s growing and growing and growing and I am proud of it! I only had a few days (thus far) where I felt “fat” and that was one of those weird hormonal days. But the majority of the time, I didn’t care if people thought I was fat and gave me weird looks. I knew I was pregnant and that’s all that mattered to me. I‘ve always wondered what it would be like to have a baby bump- how big would I get, would I retain water and swell or would I be “all baby”? How big would my boobs get? (that alone was reason enough for me to get pregnant).
Every week I receive updates on the current week of pregnancy and almost every week there is a link for pregnancy dreams. They recommend you keep a pen and pad next to your bed so when you wake up you can write down your dream. I have always had weird dreams- vivid, wild, obscure, random, sometimes sci-fi and freaky dreams- so I was wondering if I would have even more bizarre dreams than I already have. Kind of hoping I wouldn’t because my mind would probably explode! Well, instead of dreams, I’m having visions. Sort of like a hallucination without the drugs.
For example, at work one day, we had a hallway full of boxes that mostly blocked our front door. My co-worker teased me that I couldn’t leave until she was finished shipping and had order restored in the hallway. I must have given her a weird expression because she looked at me funny. The vision I had consisted of me jumping on top of her and knocking her down. Flat on her back. So that I could get out of the front door. Weird I know, but I could visualize it like it was actually happening.
Another example: Kevin and I were on the way to the store and we came to a light at the exit ramp of the interstate. There was a young man, probably in his 20’s, with a sign that he was hungry, would work for food. We normally give a dollar or so if we have the cash. This time I envisioned Kevin rolling down his window, sticking his arm fully extended out the window with cash in his hand. Then the man grabbed Kevin’s arm and bit down- kind of like a zombie.
Totally weird. I know. So instead of me having weird dreams while asleep, I get to have weird hallucinations while awake. Wonder if any other pregnant women have experienced this one.
originally written: mid-second trimester
